Somedays I just feel overwhelmed–with my to do list, with my short comings, with my fears, with my dreams, with my lack of organization.
In fact, lately it’s been most days. I don’t have any great words of wisdom or insight on this because honestly, when I start to feel this way, I run and hide.
I’m not the type of person who looks at long to-do list and tackles it because it needs to get done.
I look at my to do list and then do a million other little things that aren’t on my list to avoid what’s on the list, then I add the things I did do to the list and cross them off to make it feel like I’ve accomplished something. But really the important things are still left undone.
Or because I don’t know where to begin, I don’t begin at all and get nothing productive done during the day.
Either way, at the end of those days I’m left feeling like a failure. Lack of organization and follow through is a huge weakness in my life and a great reminder of my need for grace.
Grace for being a good steward of the time God’s given me.
Grace for moving past my failures and starting a new day with renewed hope in a God whose mercies are new every morning.
So when I succeed, it’s by God’s grace, and when I fall, God’s grace picks me up and puts me back on my feet.
In 2 Corinthians 12, Paul talks about his thorn in the flesh (which was probably more serious than my inadequacy with time management) and how he asked three times for God to remove it. Here’s God’s reply:
“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”
So Paul concludes:
Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
Woah, I’m not there yet. I still look at my weaknesses and want to fix them myself, so that people will think I’m that person who has it all together.
But I don’t have it all together, and I’m learning that it’s ok because I have a God who holds me together by his great power and amazing grace.